Meditation, again

I sit and breathe, in, out, in, out. Birds outside singing. My chest, rising and falling. Sunlight on my closed eyes. In, out, in, out.

Thoughts. How am I doing in my classes? How can I do better on my next calculus test? No. Return the mind to the breath. In, out, in, out. Suddenly, more thoughts. What kind of bird is that outside my window? A thought about a friend. A thought of money. A sexual fantasy. No. Return the mind to the breath. In, out, in, out. Discomfort. My back is killing me, but I can’t meditate lying down because I’ll go to sleep. Speaking of sleep, I’ve been having weird dreams lately. Maybe I should — no. Return the mind to the breath. In, out, in, out.

A sudden change in consciousness. Thoughts fade and disappear. For a short, merciful time, the mind locks onto the breath, and for about thirty seconds, utter stillness. In, out, in out.

It doesn’t last. The mind begins to wander again. No. Return the mind to the breath. In, out, in, out.

In, out, in, out.

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Meditation, again

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